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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

11.06.2025 02:55

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

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Put me off passion for life!!

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

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She found it foreign!.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

Would this be the day?

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Im still living with it.

Was to survive, this bastard.

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It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

But, we were locked up after school.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

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I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

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I write beautiful poetry .

I was very sick at this time too.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

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So whats the point in blame.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

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We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

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She loved him until the end.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

My landlord just sold the house I’m renting from her. She included all fixtures, that I bought and installed. Does she have this right?

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

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I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

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We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

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Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

I couldn’t, believe it.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

I had hoped to write a book about this .

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

Ive learnt so much.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

We all went to grammer schools

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

One cannot live in the past .

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

I waited trembling.

But it wasn’t much.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

As i do to all so called friends.?

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

When she asked me how she looked .

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

I said to her

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

I was 9 years of age.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

She wouldn,t have been !

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

He resisted the act ,that day.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

It was going to be , some day.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

She married twice! .

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

Especially a lifetime of it.

I was seconnd youngest,

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

My family never makes their pension either.

I could never make a relationship work though!

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

I was scared of men, in general

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

But ive been too sick for many years..

He knew the spot.

I will be 64.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

And i lived it daily.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Who then, do I blame.?

I never cut or harmed myself..

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

This is soul school!.

(And it was in our own minds.)

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

What did i know ?

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

I know ,a lot about trauma.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

Comes on , in middle age.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

My life is so biszare .

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

The only rule us 5 kids had .

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

They are buried together, in the same grave..

I don,t even have a pension.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

All the time i was locked up.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

I think the readers, may guess!

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

We were not on the streets..

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

Why did i forgive my father ?

I have no regrets .

He was dying to do it , i knew.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

She was in good health!

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

And who doesn’t know suffering?

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

So, i spoilt her more .

I did it because my mum asked me too!

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

Im dying but, im not bitter.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!